They Can Rebuild Her!

No one makes "Bionic Woman" gear -- this will just have to suffice.


So a little under two weeks before my surgery (L5-S1 fusion on 7/15/16).  I'm not supposed to take any meds (I don't usually -- mainly cause the ones that I have don't work, and the side effects suck) and no vitamins (I do every day) because some meds interfere with the fusion process.

Physically, I'm in a lot of pain right now, and just trying to get through the day.  This usually means a lot of lying down with my kitties and ice packs. But when I can, I try to get out and walk.  Working through the pain (instead of letting it dictate my mood and my movement) will also help hasten my recovery.  #BigGirlUnderroos

Emotionally, I'm still all over the place.  I'm kinda angry that we didn't do this sooner (a chance to be able to get a disc replacement?), scared for how everything is going to turn out, hopefully for possibly getting some parts of my life back (volunteering at WARL, sports, sleeping on my stomach).  I'm excited to maybe talk about some other aspects of fitness other than spine injuries.

I'm struggling with #BodyKindness.  I know my body needs all the love and compassion that I can throw at it.  But I sometimes get lost on tangents of me being angry at my body, my injury, my prognosis.

Being lost is okay -- so long as you know how to get back to the truth of who you are.