Time to think...

I did the math last night.  My serious goal looked more like an impossible goal.

The Old Me would give up.  The New Me did the math and came up with a plan.
I would have to run over 10k every day until the end of September to reach my 100 mile/160km goal.
Doable. Very doable.

But I figured I'd give myself a little bit of a cushion, and I did 16.25 km today (a little over 10m).

All that time on the elliptical gives you a lot of time to think.

I thought about the first time I was on the elliptical at the gym back in October 2006 -- when I was working with a trainer that was a marathon runner.  I could barely do a single kilometer. My lungs said "no."  The lactic acid built up in my legs until they also said "no."  More than anything, my mind said "no."

For most of my life I would listen when my mind would say "no."  I wouldn't listen to when my parents said "no." I wouldn't listen when someone said they didn't think I could do something.  And yet, when my mind told my body "no" I accepted it as fact.

And then slowly but surely as I pushed myself 5 minutes more, or a few km more, the "no" became a "maybe" and the "maybe" became a "yes."

That's the difference between the me then and the me now.  I say yes to what my body wants.
I feel I have earned my body's respect (by using the good fuel) and my body's response has been that it has risen to the challenges I have put before it.  My body is saying yes, my mind is saying yes.

As silly as it seems, I get the movie "Yes Man" more now. I understand the point that life is not about saying yes to everything blindly, but choosing what we want to say yes to--that it is possible.

I would love one day to open up a health center (once I hit the lotto and after i open my own animal shelter?) to teach people how to reprogram their lives, their bodies, and their minds to reflect their desire to be healthy.  I want to give people the tools they need to overhaul and remodel their minds, their bodies, their lives.  It is possible.  You just gotta do the work.

I have 18 more miles to run before the end of the month. It's doable.